Hax: Dealing with a husband’s affair

The Washington PostSeptember 24, 2013 

Adapted from a recent online discussion.

Dear Carolyn: My husband of 28 years is (reluctantly) moving home to his widowed mom’s house. I found out he’s been having an affair for two and a half years with a married woman we’ve both known for 35 years. Our adult-age kids still live at home and can’t wait for him to leave, as they have other festering resentments against him.

I don’t know how I feel about him anymore. He doesn’t want to leave and has sobbed heartfelt apologies to me, but says it’s really none of the kids’ business. On the flip side, he admitted to me and the kids that he’d still be having the affair if he hadn’t been caught since she fills a need in him that I never have.

I’m just numb and exhausted. For some reason, I feel guilty that he’s hurting so much and the kids want nothing to do with him. How do I know what I’m to blame for and how to feel?

ANONYMOUS

I’m sorry. There is logic to be had here, and, like a stair rail in a dark basement, it can lead you up and out.

His admission that “he’d still be having the affair” is damning, but if you take the (no doubt acute) hurt feelings away, it’s the biggest duh in the history of love. No one ever gets every need satisfied by a single relationship. I have zero doubt, and so should you, that you could meet someone who gives you something your husband never could. And maybe you wouldn’t follow through with an affair, but you might imagine your way right to the brink.

Sympathy might seem wrong here, but, wow, what a powerful example to your kids if you could say to them: “Your father did a rotten thing and I’m angry, and we may not stay together, but I’m not so angry that I’ve forgotten he’s human. I will continue with this separation, but I will not vilify him, and I hope you all can make peace with the whole person your father is, versus just what he has done lately.”

Taking a position and declaring it closed to family debate will allow you to concentrate on adjusting to your new reality and awaiting clarity on how you feel about your marriage.

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